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YES .. Thats right ppl ..
I Am ALIVE .. !!
well .. not 100% alive .. but still in this world ..
Ive been through alot recently
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My Whole life have changed ..
Ive been betrayed
how ironic ..
and i always tell every one to chose their friends carefully ..
cause .. they are the Ones who r supposed to make u smile
when u r sad .. and give u a Hug .. when u r feeling lonely ..
But ..
i Never knew .. that ..
i will bleed my heart .. because of them ..
.. Wallah .. i wished and wished ..
that its just another nightmare ..
but its NoT ...
and .. in Sorrow .. i lived ..
Asking only 1 Question ..
Why ...?
.. just want to know why .. ?
a question .. with No answer .. except my falling tears ..
and There where a time .. where i thought ..
I just Cant Take it Any More ..
So .. i went to the beach .. and screamed ..
(( Stupiiiiiiiid Liiiiiife .. Leeeave meee alooone )) !!
yeaaah .. always blaming the poor life ..
because of human mistakes ..
... my pen .. my books .. my Camera ..
.. my memories .. my pasion .. my studies ..
.. my plans .. my
.. Myself ..
where all covered by dust ..
i guess ..
when u try to forget something .. someone .. so badly ..
u try to bury the memories u shared with that person ..
but at the end ..
you forget Every thing else ..
.. Ive totally lost Myself
mmm .. and then .. after monthes ..
while i was surfing DA ..
I Saw it !!
An amazing journal .. that was written by some one i dont know ..
but .. that feeling ..
of pure words .. coming straight from an honest heart ..
That feeling .. which i missed so much ..
.. i just read it .. and thought ..
.. i know exactly what do u mean
That person .. and his writting ..
made me remove the dust layers from my soul ..
and hold my pen again .. wanting to write ..
even thought he doesnt know me ..
and may not read my words ..
i want to say to him ..
Thank you ..
really .. Thank you .. Cancer
keep writing .. u have an amazing talent there
and to every friend of mine here ..
even thought i didnt have the chance to know u all better ..
i was really glad to read ur words in my page ..
ur comments on my journals ..
and see ur creative pics .. and Fav them
wallah .. thank u all ..
keep supporting me
.. A wish ..
.. i wish that this time .. i will smile ..
.. without looking behind ..
a New Start for Me ..
a Fresh Start for Me .. ^___^